Decisions...and Choices...

I have been all a fluster lately and totally undecisive about what I expect from my creative self! And, I have come to some major decisions and major choices in my creative world.

Part of all this soul-searching has come my from my thinking that I wanted to spin...now I have to admit Scarlett has been more than patient with me and I am sure if I said "this is what I want!" she would try and move heaven and earth to make sure I got what I wanted. But, I have been very undecisive. So, last Saturday we went looking at the process and what was actually involved in this "spinning" thing and I made some very serious discoveries.

1) Spinning wheels are cute...but they require some effort in making them go...and I am not one of those coordinated people - you know the kind "rub tummy in one direction, while rubbing head in other". I have tried various wheels from different friends and while they tell me "it will come with time", I find it frustrating at best.

2) There are far too many other gadgets that need to go with this wheel...and when I saw those "rip your hands apart" things they call carders...well, I began to have second thoughts.

3) The fleece comes from a sheep and what I currently own is "raw fleece"...it is dirty...it has things in it...Now you must understand - this woman does not get her hands dirty...I resist all efforts and attempts to get my hands into soil (like in gardening). So you can imagine my feelings about fleece. The bottom line on that one is that I am an "admirer" of beauty around me...I do little to create that outside garden beauty.

4) What I really love is creating from the finished product - The WOOL...there are so many patterns I want to knit, yarns I want to use, and ideas about dying both yarn and fabric floating through my head that I feel that making the product with which to create is not a necessity. Do I want to make my own fabric??? NO! So, what was I thinking when I thought I needed to create the yarn that I knit with?

5) The knitting with yarn and the quilting with fabric and the embellishing of both of those are truly my passions - and I love creating within those arenas. I love beading and am finding new and different ways to embellish both mediums...as well as making a little jewelry...and other beaded items.

So, after a long day out and about exploring the options of my learning to spin and looking deep within myself at what I truly enjoyed...I decided that spinning wasn't really something that would add to my creative pleasure...but rather would take time from the things that I truly enjoyed doing.